Change

Why does it feel like I can't hold a conversation anymore?
Why do I just want to dissolve in the background when I enter a room full of people?
Why do I hate checking out stuff on the internet anymore for the fear of conversation?
Why do I just want to run away from everything I know and love?
Why can't I breathe without being cautious?
Why is it only that the rhythm of dance can shake me out of inertia?
Why does the mere act of living seem so easy yet so difficult at the same time?
I know I've changed.
But...
Why is it that I've changed so much that I don't know myself anymore?